.tied up.

Friday, October 22, 2004

crap

i feel like crap.
i feel like as if my whole world's turned upside down.
i don't have control.
i'm losing it.
i don't understand.
why?
what's going on?
i don't wanna go.
i really don't.
i don't mind dropping it.
i really don't mind.
but please don't make me leave.
not now.
not right here.
i'm so confuse.
i'm freaking depressed.
i feel like as if i've wasted my time.
wasted all my time.
i don't know what i'm doing now.
i don't even know why i'm here.
i'm so lost.
bye bye to you.
and bye bye to you too.
bye bye to all of u.
it's my departure.
i can't remember the last time i cried so much.
i can't remember the last time i felt so helpless.
been crying since 2 hours ago.
haven't stopped.
i don't know what's wrong.
i felt pretty alright in school.
not til she had to open her ugly mouth.
and say those ugly words.
and tell me those ugly thoughts.
i feel like as if i don't have control over anything in my life anymore.
and i don't remember what it's like to give it to God.
i just need time to wallow.
i just need to wallow.
i need to pray.
don't feel like going school tmw.
not in the right frame of mind.
not in the mood.
but i got to go.
sigh.
i need time.

[ Jude whispered ][ 10:54 PM ]

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